Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Christmas was fun. I got a lot of good stuff. A few books, some jewelry, a blanket that has a dolphin on it. Yea, good spoils. Oh, and I also got fuzzy socks, interestingly enough.

There is so much snow. It's so deep, and yet, I haven't been out to play in it yet. It's really windy too, but the sun has been out a few days.

Lydia and I discovered a new treat. When the power went out on Saturday, we lit some candles, so we could read. Lydia wanted to roast marshmallows over them,but since those were downstairs, we didn't want to go get them. then we remembered the girl we met on the beach last summer. She was roasting starbursts over the fire. Since we happened to have some starbursts, we decided to try it. Surprisingly enough, it actually is really good. It makes the candy crispy on the outside and gooey on the inside. It works with tootsie rolls too.

It was interesting trying to get ready for church with the power out. The power came back on about five minutes before we were going to leave.

Anyway, I guess that's it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Monday, December 22, 2008

Christmas is coming!

We've been snowed in. It started snowing Wednesday morning and has pretty much been snowing since, except a few hours at most. We have tons of snow, and although earlier I was really excited about it, now I'm getting bored of it. I still have yet to go out and play in it, so tomorrow, Lydia and I are going to spend awhile outside, sledding and building a snowman.

Seminary was canceled on Thursday and Friday, and church on Sunday was only the first hour, the rest was canceled as well.

Today I had another orthodontics appointment and had my wire changed. My braces are now red and blue, which actually looks pretty cool.

On the way home, Lydia, mom, and I were talking about Santa Clause. We were discussing who or what he is. My point of view is that Santa/St. Nick/Chris Kringle is real, but not in the same sense as most children believe. Santa isn't a guy in a red suit with a ton of elves who lives at the North Pole. No, Santa is more of a Spirit. He's the Spirit of Giving. He visits every house each Christmas, bringing along a feeling of happiness and joy. It is the parent's job to give the gifts, but if they aren't able to give the gifts under the tree, then the Spirit of Giving usually comes and those unfortunate people are given a good Christmas in other ways, by other people.

A friend of Lydia, Ann, brought up the idea that one of the three Nephites or his other apostle that was made immortal is Santa Clause, since they were left on Earth to teach the people. It fits, kind of.

On another note, we decided today that we needed to name our car. We have only had one vehicle that we named, and that was our ford, explorer, which we called 'The Exploder' because it always exploded. So, we named our car. since it works well in the snow, we called it 'The Snow Meister' or 'SM' for short. Yes, we're weird for naming our car. Get over it.

I just realized yesterday, that Christmas is Thursday. It doesn't really seem like it's that close. I guess I've just been busy.

That's it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Monday, December 15, 2008


Music is probably my favorite thing in the world. Last night we went over to Ginanne's and ate dinner, then we went to a music thing at the church that was so cool. When the congregation sang together, the music rang off the walls and echoed everywhere. It was amazing to sing with such a musically talented group that big. It was very spiritual.

Tonight was my recital. It was fun. I found out just how much different from all my teachers other students tonight. I was probably the most experienced performer there. I was almost the oldest. There was an adult there that was older. All the other students are younger.

The recital was different from recitals that I've had in the past. It seemed more casual and less strict. We had an intermission where we all sang Christmas songs and it was great. I played my song better than I have before too, I wasn't that nervous because the atmosphere was calmer, it also helped that I was one of the better performers.

I was calculating a few days ago, and I realized that I had been playing the piano since first grade. Eight years. That's a long time.

I been thinking lately, not that I'm never not thinking, and I came up with my New Years Resolution. I know it's a couple weeks early, but I want to write it down before I forget.

I've been really lazy lately. I've been getting bad grades, slacking off on my writing, skipping schoolwork that I really need to work on, and I feel that I'm not progressing very much with the piano lately.

Since Christmas break is next week, I'm going to take those two weeks to relax and take a break, then when school starts again in January, I'm going to start the new year running. I'm going to work harder on everything; piano, schoolwork, chores, reading scriptures, everything.

If I keep going like I am right now, I won't be able to fulfill several of my goals. So when I start working on this resolution in January, I'm going to start keeping this updated with how I'm doing, that way when I start slacking off, because I almost guarantee that I will, you can reply and get on my case about it.

Anyway, back to more fun things. Lucy, Lydia's hamster, escaped while we were at the recital tonight. So now there is a rodent wandering the house somewhere.

Today was freezing! We had negative temperatures. With the wind it was even colder. Right now, I really want to go visit somewhere warm and sunny. Preferably a beach with warm water that has dolphins playing in it. That'd be great, but highly unlikely. Looking out the window, I know there is no way I could be somewhere warm. Don't get me wrong, I love the snow and the whiteness. It's the cold that I don't like.

If there was someway to make a snow like substance that fell from the sky that was warm and didn't melt in the sun, I would be outside, playing in it at all times. Then again, the fact that snow is cold, gives you the excuse to drink lots of hot chocolate and spiced cider.

Till next time,
~The Big Dreamer~

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Grandma's Arrival

So, Grandma and Grandpa arrived today instead of Monday, but it wasn't too bad since the temple trip was canceled. Mom and dad aren't home though, because they are in town Christmas shopping.

I'm so nervous for my recital Monday, it's not even funny. I really wish I had the song down better, but I can't get it down any better before Monday.

We spent all day cleaning, which was kind of annoying. At least I got to sleep in, for once.

I was watching how the cats played with the snow, since for most of them ,it's their first winter. It's funny that Trixie walks on top of the snow, while all the others sink into it and get all wet.

Today was boring in all,
~The Big Dreamer~

Friday, December 12, 2008

Snow, Seminary, Stuff

It is snowing, and this time I have hopes that it'll last more than a day. It has been snowing steadily since Seminary this morning. The ground is covered with whiteness and it is freezing.

Next week is the last week of school until break, so I'm pretty busy with everything still. Hopefully in the two weeks of break I get I'll be able to get back into all the stories I've been writing. I just find that I don't very much time anymore, especially since my piano recital is on Monday so I've been practicing a lot lately. Not that I don't practice a lot in the first place, but I've had longer practices, and it's wearing me out. The song is memorized, but it's four pages long, so it's difficult to play under pressure. I'm going to play at the recital with the music, but it'll be okay anyway.

Yesterday at Seminary, I accidentally let slip that my recital is Monday, and Sis. Smiley had me bring the piece to Seminary this morning to play in front of everyone. I don't mind playing in front of people I don't know, because I'll probably never see them again, but in front of all my friends like was freaky, but I did okay.

For literature this week, I'm reading 'To Kill a Mockingbird' well actually, I haven't started it yet. I'm supposed to read the first four chapters today. It sounds like a boring book to me, but it has a lot of people that like it so I'll to wait til I've read it to see.

My sister is so strange. Lydia was sitting on the couch, and trying to avoid doing her schoolwork, she was paying attention to the cat. The cat, Co-co, was sleeping. Lydia sighed all of a sudden and said to Co-co "You need to work on your 'not-boring' skills!" Co-co looked up at her and started purring.

Tomorrow, the youth are going on a temple trip, and it should be interesting, because the names we are doing are some of my family names. Sis. Smiley also has some names to be done tomorrow and she told us the history behind them and stuff, so I'll really be able to connect.

The house is all decorated for Christmas. Well, sort of. The stockings are hung, the nativities are out, and the tree is up, it only has lights on it so far though. I don't know if it'll get farther than that, really.

I guess that's it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Bad Mood

I'm in a bad mood.

Today was the gingerbread house contest for WAVA. We didn't win. At all. We were planning on signing up for the 'people's choice' judging, and we would have won if we did, but the teachers there convinced us to sign up for the Crystal awards, where some judges come in and decide. That wasn't a good thing. There were three other houses in the Crystal awards. One of them won, not us. There wasn't a second or third place, we just walked away with nothing, except a certificate that everyone got. I don't mind that we didn't win, it's the fact that we got absolutely nothing to show for our work.

The first year we did the contest, we won first prize. Last year, we got second. This year we didn't place. Why does it seem like we're getting worse at making gingerbread houses?

Also at the WAVA activity was ice skating. I've decided I hate it. I stayed on the ice for only a few seconds and couldn't control the skates at all. How am I supposed to be able to ice skate if I can't even roller skate? It's impossible for me.

After that we went Christmas shopping, and my back is now sore from carrying around dad's Christmas present (that's a hint on the size, dad). I, at the moment, also have a bad headache and feel like complaining a little bit.

I'm done,
~The Big Dreamer~

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Twilight and Gingerbread House

Yesterday and today have been fun. Yesterday we got the first real snow of the season, and now there is a couple of inches on the ground. That's exciting, also we went and saw Twilight last night. It was really good. Lydia, who refuses to read the books, liked it, but she didn't get all the subtle points on it that mom and I got because we have read the books. I still think that Jacob is better than Edward though. Even in the movie he was cuter. We all agreed that Bella in the movie looks and acts just like Heather, her real name is Kristen Stewart too.

Today we are building our gingerbread house for the WAVA competition. The theme is 'Over the river and through the woods to grandmother's house we go,' so we have to make a river and a forest and then grandmother's house, that is the actual house of the piece. We even have a sleigh with a horse made of clay stuff that is following the path. It is looking good so far and I'm excited about the contest. I'll have to post some pictures when it's finished.

The vocab words for Spanish this week is food, so every time I do Spanish I'm talking about the different sorts of fruit, vegetables, and meat, making me hungry. It's fun, but annoying at the same time.

Also, I read a book yesterday about personal responsibility, but it was more for businesses, so it was kind of strange. I finished it in less than an hour. It talked about asking 'What' or 'How' rather than 'Why', 'When', or 'Who' when you see things that need to be done.

There is this quote that I found the other day that says 'All people dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible.' -T.E. Lawrence

That's it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Thursday, November 27, 2008


Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Today for Thanksgiving, the Baloughs came up from down the hill and are joining us since none of my older siblings are coming. Right now we are watching Stuart Little with Sarah, who is eight years old. It's a little strange to have an eight year old hanging around the house today.

I haven't had the opportunity to write at all since I've been trying to catch up with my schoolwork. I'm pretty sure that some of my readers are mad at me because of that.

I heard this song played on the piano that was a medley of five Disney songs that was so cool. I want to find the music for that song and learn it, but it is like seven minutes long, with five songs combined. All I know about it is that it is by Alan Tripp, but I can't find it anywhere.

My piano recital is in two weeks, and I don't even have the song memorized. I'm not even prepared, so I'm so nervous about it. The song is probably the longest that I've tried to memorize, being four pages long. I'll probably end up playing it out of the book.

I'm excited to eat dinner at 2:00 because I'm hungry and I've been smelling the food cooking since yesterday morning. It smells so good, but Thanksgiving dinner always does.

I'm gonna go eat now,
~The Big Dreamer~

Sunday, November 23, 2008

A Trip

It's been a long time since I last posted. Nothing much has happened, except that since I last posted, I have been sick with a cold. It just barely disappeared on Friday, but I still have a slight cough.

Sister Romero was in a car crash, but no one was injured, she's just sore. In mutual she kept staring off into space and claimed it was from the crash. There was supposed to be a planning meeting for mutual, but we didn't get much accomplished because everyone was way to hyper, or at least the laurels. The Mia maids just sat at the back of the room, watching in amusement at them. Brianne and Elizabeth got into a fight which included Brianne fake crying, Elizabeth getting slapped, and the two of them getting into a wrestling match. It was interesting to say the least.

Wednesday, when I went to the library, I got both the third Eragon book, and the third Inkheart book, two of my favorite series. Unfortunately, The third Eragon book is so thick that even though I literally read it all day Thursday and then all day Saturday, I'm still only half way through. It's going to take forever to finish reading them, since I don't have very much free time anymore. I would read them at night, but I'm out of the habit of reading into the early hours of the morning, like I used to, not to mention that Seminary is way to early to stay up late reading.

On Thursday, my family left really early to travel to Logan, Utah to go to Becky's wedding. I read the whole time, which I'm pretty sure frustrated Lydia, because she was bored and was always bugging me.

We spent the night at a hotel in Logan. The next day, we went to the temple to see Becky get married. The Logan temple is so pretty. It looks so much like a castle and I have now put it on the list of temples that I'd consider to get married in.

Becky was so pretty and I really liked her dress. After we left the temple, we went and ate at Golden Corral. There was a lot of little kids running around and screaming. It gave me a headache, but I didn't mind to much.

After that, we traveled to Pocatello where we went to Grandma's house and talked for a few hours until the reception. The reception was decorated beautifully. On the other hand, when me, Chalise, Tice, Lydia, and several other boys went out to decorate Becky's car, I found out that the boys have absolutely no skill in decorating cars. They must not have very much experience.

After the reception we went back to Grandma's house and spent the night there. We left the next morning and traveled all day back home. I spent most of the day reading and, once again, Lydia tried to get me to stop. I eventually did and fell asleep again.

We stopped at one of the gas stations and I found a good pair of dolphin earrings that I had to buy. They are my new favorite earrings, since I love dolphins and all.

We got home late and immediately went to bed.

Today in church, Meagan and I were amused by Kati and Michael bickering back and forth. I swear one day that they will end up married by the way they are acting. Meagan was near bursting, because she went and saw Twilight the opening night and I hadn't seen it yet, so it was banned. Kati hadn't seen it either, but surprisingly enough, Michael did go and see it. He said he liked it too.

Anyway, I am now really behind in schoolwork, since I took the vacation. I am not looking forward to tomorrow and having to catch up. I'm going to have to do double the work for the whole week,trying to catch up.

The fireside I attending tonight was great. The speaker, Brother McKinney, is a good speaker. The subject was choices and Brother McKinney spoke about his experience in the army, and all the choices he had to make with that. In between stories, he had Conner, Elizabeth, and EJ sing hymns that related to the talk. It was really good, and the treats afterward were good too. Ann is funny. She was pigging out on brownies, including shoving a whole brownie in her mouth, making it so she couldn't
talk. She and the other Ann keep having contests of who can eat the most.

Oh, and Grandma, I'll try to work on my stories and get them updated as soon as possible for you.

I think that's everything,
~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

EFY and YWiE

A lot has happened since I last posted. I've just been busy, I guess. On Saturday I went to EFY. I went with dad several hours early and helped set up. EFY itself was good. The first speaker talked about repentence, and at the end of his talk he sang a song that he wrote that was really touching. I admit it, I teared up a bit. The second speaker was good too, she's a little crazy though, I think. She spoke on praying and shared how to always get answers to your prayers, and how to get good grades. The third speaker was the best in my opinion. I'm not sure what his topic was. Maybe it was being an example, but anyway, he compared teenagers to chickens. He was a bit odd. He said how we should all be an example to those we are around. He talked about the pecking order as well.

After we ate dinner, Stacia and her mom decided we should go get ice cream, so we headed out to their car. Stacia started the car, but then closed the door with them still locked. The car was running and there was no way to get in. I'll just say this: She's a blond.

The dance was interesting. Neither Katie nor Meagan was around during the dance, so I didn't really have any one to hang around that I knew. I danced a lot more than at regular dances, I suppose that's because there were more boys. I've decided that I'm not going to marry anyone that lives anywhere near here, because they are all idiots. Every single one I danced with were immature. For example, one of the guys asked which school I attended and I replied that I was home schooled. He stared at me for a few moments, then started laughing and didn't stop the whole rest of the time we were dancing. I see no way that being home schooled is funny. He was a bad dancer too.

Then there was this other guy, I swear he was stalking me. He was staring at me nearly the whole time. He didn't even ask me to dance or anything, just stared.

Anyway, it was altogether quite fun.

Monday night, I had a strange dream. I used to have strange dreams like it when I was in public school. Now that I'm in high school, it's starting up again. I suppose it's probably stress causing me to have the odd dreams. Anyway, the dream was about a horse loving zombie that nearly killed me. In fact, I get almost killed in a lot of my dreams. It's strange, really. I once had this dream that me, mom, Lydia, Ginanne, and Emily were all shopping in the mall and I suddenly heard this loud boom, like a gunshot, then suddenly every thing went black. It was really freaky.

This morning, as it's veteran's day, I got off of Seminary. I still woke up at 5:30 though, because that's the time I always get up. I stayed in bed for another two and a half hours reading though, I got my book half finished. I've been busy lately and haven't had the time to relax and read. It was good to spend several hours reading a good book.

Tonight was Young Women in Excellence. The theme was stars, so we all dressed in blue and the room had lots of cool decorations. We had a nice dinner, then we had to sing. I was singing a solo. It was scary. I swear I was horrible when I was up there singing, but afterward I got so many complements on it. I swear (not that I'm supposed to swear or anything) that I got more complements than I've gotten before in my entire life. And with those complements came hugs. I'm not really a hugging person, so it was kind of strange getting a lot of hugs. It was people I knew really well, though. My Seminary teacher, my Mia Maids teacher, my past teachers that I've had in different classes, my trek mom...lots of people giving hugs to me. I guess I found a new talent, not that I didn't have too many talents before I found it.

So Meagan wants me to come play laser tag with her sometime during Christmas break. I really have no idea what laser tag even is. Well I mean, it's tag played with lasers, but I have no idea. It'll probably fall through anyway. She invite's me to a lot of things but I never end up going because I just don't know what to do or where to go. She leaves out a lot of information to things she tells me. She's a good friend though, I think she's the friend that I've had the longest. We grew up together, but I still don't consider us best friends. She's just not the right person to be a best friend, I don't really know why. I guess we're just not that close.

Okay, this is getting long enough. I'll finish up with a cool quote or two.

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.

Live everyday as if it's your last, then someday, you'll be right!

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.

Goodbye everyone,
~The Big Dreamer~

Friday, November 7, 2008

A Grim Day

Today there was rain, rain, and more rain. Absolutely no snow, sadly enough. Also, I had a test in English, a test in Biology, a test in Geometry, and two tests that I had to make up in Spanish. The only subject I didn't have a test in was PE, and that's only because it doesn't have tests! It's bad when all the tests are set for the same day, usually they are spread out.

In Seminary, we played this game where the person in the center had a rolled up newspaper and you said part of a scripture, then called out a persons name, before whacking that person if they didn't say the next few words of the scripture fast enough. It was interesting to say the least. Also, Sis. Smiley made these cupcakes that were to die for. They were chocolate with cream cheese filling. They were so good.

Yesterday, I was home all alone, because Lydia and mom went to a WAVA activity and so they missed out on the small amount of snow that we got. It snowed for forty-five minutes, at the most. Not enough to even really enjoy. It was still snow, though.

Last summer while we were at the beach, Lydia proclaimed that I was really weird and that she wasn't going to be my sister anymore. Well, earlier today, I decided the same thing about her. I am unofficially changing my last name to Blackwell, just so I'm not related to her. Of course, only when she's being introduced with me will I use that. I like being a Stewart. It's a cool last name. The only bad thing is that it's the same last name as some really odd people (cough Lydia cough).

So, in Spanish I now know how to write short sentences properly. I'm going to try to start translating some of my fanfiction stories into Spanish now, so I can post them in a second language to get more readers. I don't know how good it'll be though, I'll need someone who speaks Spanish really well to edit them for me.

I guess that is it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Thursday, November 6, 2008


I'm excited, the first snow of the year is falling. YAY! The Christmas songs have paid off! Now I'm going to go all hyper because I love snow! I'm going to go out and exercise now, just so I can be out with the snow.

I just had to announce that it was snowing, sorry...

~The Big Dreamer~

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Bad Day or Good Day?

I'm thinking the world is out to get me, or at least fanfiction members. Today, one of the stories that I have been working so hard on, for more than four months, was deleted, because some person decided they didn't like it and found some reason to get it banned by the admins. I have no idea what was wrong with it, they didn't tell me. They just said they deleted it because it broke the rules. Also, I got two flames on my other story. Apparently, they really don't like me at all.

Today while at piano lessons, a Jehovah's Witness missionary person interrupted the lesson and gave the piano teacher a bunch of pamphlets about their church. It was really kind of annoying, but amusing at the same time.

So, I did another not-so-scientific test today. The test: how many people actually notice me.

When we went to taco bell for dinner, Lydia put a sticker on my head that said 'special' and I kept it on. Afterward we went to Walmart, and I took note of how many people looked at me strange. One adult took a second glance at me, and ten kids under the age of twelve stared at me like I was the strangest person in the world, which could actually be close to true.

Conclusion: I don't get very many people to notice me, or maybe they were just ignoring me...

Anyway, I had a Spanish illuminate today, and the teacher kept pronouncing my name in Spanish, so when she was talking to me, I really didn't even know she was telling me something until afterward. It was rather strange.

I found another quote I really like.

'Everyone has a part to play in the story of lives. Though we may find the tasks set to us sometimes difficult, sometimes unwanted, sometimes draining, we all must do our parts. Only then do we realize our purpose in this world and see that there is always something worth fighting for. We must use our gifts, whatever they may be, for what they are intended for and live with the consequences they bring.'

Until next time,
~The Big Dreamer~

Friday, October 31, 2008


Last time I posted was last Thursday, and a few things have happened since then. Last Saturday was Sara's baptism. I gave a talk on the Holy Ghost. Everyone seemed to like it. On Tuesday, the young woman threw a Halloween party for the primary kids. I was stuck running the Bingo table, which wasn't really Bingo, as I could control exactly who won and everything. The costume I was wearing wasn't exactly comfortable either, really tight.

I'm wearing that costume again tonight as we're going over to Ginnane's house to pass out candy tot he trick-or-treater's while Ginanne takes Emily trick-or-treating. Me and Lydia are dressed as 'The Two Princesses of Bamarre' which I doubt a lot of people know about. At mutual, only one person knew who we were, and that was only after I explained the book to her.

Lydia dressed all the cat's up in costumes made out of pipe cleaners. Simba is dressed up as a deer, or rather 'Prongs' from 'Harry Potter.' Lily is dressed up as little red riding hood. Sandy is dressed as the granny. Fiera is dressed as a wolf. Bellatrix is dressed as 'Bellatrix Lestrange' also from Harry Potter. We wanted to dressed Co-co up as a piece of chocolate, but there wasn't enough pipe cleaners.

At Piano lessons, I started a Jazz version of Silent Night, and it's probably the oddest version of it that I've heard. It's so strange.

Today in Seminary, we played New Testament Bingo, and so we all went home with lots of candy. Also, I got a Spider ring, which I named Larry. It is my official Laptop decorator now, since it is too small to fit on my finger. I'm thinking that tonight, I might change the costume slightly and be a witch instead of a princess. Lydia can stay the same, and be Sleeping Beauty or something.

Wednesday, when we went to the library, Lydia got a movie called 'Woof' and it's very strange. It's about a boy who can change into a dog and there's this whole mystery about how he does it. It must be a movie from Britain or something, because of the way they all talk in it. The main character reminds me a lot of one of the Weasley's from Harry Potter. He looks just like them.

I decided, that when I start working over the summers, I want to get a job at the library. They already know me there. I go in every week and so they can call me by name and everything. It's kind of cool. Of course, then I'll be one of those book worm type of people, but I suppose I already am one anyways.

Lydia and I created a language. It's for us to use on chats and stuff for when we don't want other people to know what we're saying. It'll be hard to translate it so we can speak it, but it'll still work for what we need it to do. We can it LAL.

I suppose that is it for now,
~The Big Dreamer~

Thursday, October 23, 2008


So, I just got back from the dentist. I got a filling done on each side, the tooth that is farthest in the back. My mouth is completely numb and I don't know how I'm going to eat since I can't eat anything but really soft foods for the rest of the day. Also, you know that metallic taste that you get when metal touches a new filling? Well, there is a band for my braces right beside both fillings, making my mouth filled with the annoying metallic taste. They liked the color of my braces though, green.

This morning in seminary, we talked about the birth of Christ and then how at twelve years old, Jesus was left behind at Jerusalem. After that, we all started telling stories about we got lost. It was entertaining when Matt was telling his story, someone said that he started crying when he got lost, and this was just a month ago, and he agreed and went along with it. He said he went to the gift shop and bought some chapstick and sat there messing with the chapstick for two hours before his class found him.

I have found my new favorite quote. It is, "Live like there's no tomorrow, dream like you'll live forever."

~The Big Dreamer~

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Spitually Strengthening Stuff

Last night for mutual, we all dressed up as Book of Mormon/ Bible characters. They invited the Newport ward's youth and so there was a lot of people there. First Bro. McKinney who was dressed as Captain Moroni said some words on faith and then we all stood and talked about our characters and said why they were our hero. I went as Rebekah, the wife of Issac. The most popular female character was queen Ester and the most popular male character was a stripling warrior. Afterward, we all had pie, which Sis. Romero called poison.

This morning at seminary we had a testimony meeting, except everyone had to bear their testimony. The Spirit was so strong. After we were all done, Sis. Smiley said that if she was stranded on the top of a mountain in three feet of snow at midnight, she would want us all to be there with her, so God would take us all up to Heaven like the city on Enoch. That would never happen. I mean, how would a whole Seminary class, plus the teacher, get stranded on top of a mountain in three feet of snow at midnight? Very unrealistic.

Anyway, at piano lessons today, I started a new song. It's a jazzy type Christmas song. I'm apparently really good at those songs and playing them just comes easily for me. The teacher also said that I played one of the songs 'beautifully.' I've never heard anyone say that me playing was beautiful.

Lydia wants me to get off and watch 'The Waterhorse' now so I better stop typing.

~The Big Dreamer~

Monday, October 20, 2008

Trying to make it Snow

Lydia and I have a goal to make it snow before October ends. I'm playing a bunch of Christmas songs on the piano and we have Christmas songs playing in the background while we do schoolwork. The other thing we have succeeded in getting is rain so far...

Lydia and I were going to throw a Halloween party, but then the young women are going to put on a Halloween party for the little kids. Also, the few people we've told don't seem very interesting in going to a Halloween party, so I think we're just going to call it off.

So, I'm at the good part in my fanfiction. It's the part where Sirius dies, but I really don't want Sirius to die because he's one of the best characters, not my favorite, those places are reserved for Luna Lovegood and Draco Malfoy, but he is still a character that I want to stay in the story. I have no idea how to keep him alive if I decide to not kill him off though. I need him, because he's training Haley to become an animagus and she can't complete that without him, because only Moony could help her and he isn't an animagus himself.

Anyway, I've been realizing how fragile life is. I was reading a poem I got in my email that was written by a girl with cancer. It was talking about how you should live your life to the fullest because she couldn't.

Meagan was talking Saturday and something she said I liked. She was talking to one of her friends at school and was complaining about life, which is pretty common for her. The friends interrupted her and said "When you loose all hope, just remember this: At least when you look up, you can see the stars." her friend lives in town, so he can't see the stars when they come out. I thought that was cool.

~The Big Dreamer~

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Exciting Dance

Okay, I haven't posted in a week, but my life was boring. It is now getting more interesting though. Today at church, I volunteered to sing a solo for the young woman's night of excellence, and Sis. Romero invited all the young men and parents to that.

Also, my neighbor, Sara is getting baptized, and she asked me to give a talk on the Holy Ghost at her baptism, next Saturday.

Also, for mutual next Tuesday I have to dress up as my favorite bible/book of Mormon character, but I have no idea who to dress up as.

Last night there was a stake dance. Sis. Romero gave Meagan, Ray, and I a ride. On the way to Chewelah, where the dance was, we got pulled over by a cop. Sis. Romero had a front headlight and the cop just gave us a warning. It turned out that the cop was actually LDS too because he told us we should go to the North Stake dance because he had a couple sons that were at that dance.

So, Sis. Romero decides she needs to floss her teeth because there was something stuck in them and so we go into Safeway to buy floss. Well, when we came out, we got pulled over again this time because she was speeding. She got a $200 ticket.

So the dance was normal, even though we got there more than halfway late, and then on the way home, we stopped at a gas station to buy some snacks for the trip back home.

The police officers that had pulled us over were in the store, eating dinner. That was interesting to say the least.

During the dance, Maria came up to me and said that her sister Kala, who is also my Trek sister, is jealous of her because she gets to come to dances and see me every month and Kala doesn't get to come until next August.

I wouldn't think that I became close enough to Kala that she would really miss me that much. I guess she thinks of me like a older sister now, though. I don't mind that much really. Sarah is the one sister that I really miss, and she doesn't come to Stake dances because she is in Republic Branch.

I guess that's all that has happened,
~The Big Dreamer~

Monday, October 13, 2008

An Interesting Lesson

In seminary today we learned about physical and spiritual handicaps and so Sis. Smiley tied us all up with duck tape. Some people had it so they couldn't speak, some people were tied to chairs and others had their arms or legs tied so they couldn't use them. Elizabeth was blind folded and Erin was deaf.

We joked about what would happen if there was a fire right then. The headline "Seminary teacher kills a whole class of students that were tied to chairs!"

It was an interesting lesson to say the least.

In Spanish today, I learned that Cinco De Mayo (the Mexican holiday) isn't even celebrated in Mexico. It is just celebrated in the USA, even though it is claimed to me the Mexican Independence day. Their real Independence day is September 16th.

I dressed my Spanish avatar in her Halloween costume. She is count Dracula's wife and has a scary white cat.

I guess that's it.
~The Big Dreamer~

Sunday, October 12, 2008

A cool website I found

I found this website and it's interesting, but it's mostly for kids so... anyway, the link is

I'd like to post my memoir on here, but I don't know how, as it's a document and not a website. Also, the last time I tried, it didn't work, so I guess that you can't read it. It's seven pages long, so I don't want to post it on here, but I might have to if someone really wants to read it.

Anyway, I haven't posted in a long time, and I'm sorry but nothing really exciting has happened. Just normal life.

My and mom were talking the other day and we got talking about what people would think if they could see into our minds. If someone saw into my mind, they would get lost. I'm always thinking about one of the many stories I'm working on, and also schoolwork that has to be done, plus worrying about events coming up. My mind is hectic. I think way to much, as you have probably realized.

So, Lydia is writing a story, and for it she needs a whole bunch of cat names, so me and Lydia were trying to think of names of cats we had in the past. If you think of any, let me know so I can tell her. Thanks.

I guess that's it,
~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Scientific investigation

It came to my attention that there are some unanswered questions in this world. One of such has been pondered over by man for many, many years. There have been given many answers. I have done some research and come up with a suitable answer to it.

The question: "Why did the chicken cross the road?"

One simple answer I found:

"Why did the chicken cross the road?" is one of the oldest and most famous joke riddles still in use in the English language. The most common answer to this riddle is "To get to the other side." When asked at the end of a series of other riddles, whose answers are clever, obscure, and tricky, this answer's obviousness and straight-forwardness becomes part of the humor. Some psychologists believe the riddle's humor comes from the fact that its answer is expected to be funny, but is not.

But that is not the only answer. Another answer from a more scientific view:

The question "Why did the chicken cross the road" is invalid. It is invalid because "why" assumes that the chicken had some reason for taking the action "cross the road". This, in turn, assumes that the chicken has the concept of "road"; after all, if the chicken doesn't know that the road is there, then the chicken did not - from the chickens point of view - cross the road, and consequently it is meaningless to ask for its motivations for doing so.

Since chicken is an animal, it is unlikely that it has the concept of road in the same sense than humans do; since it is a bird, whose ancestors were probably capable of flight in the near past, it is unlikely to have the concept of road in any sense - why would a flying bird need roads?

Therefore, the chicken can never have any motivation for crossing the road, since from the chickens point of view, it never does any such thing. It simply moves from one point to another, and these points happen to be on the opposite side of a flat area of ground. No road-crossing has happened.

Think of it this way: if you walk over a scent trail left by some animal, and you don't know that the trail is there, it is foolish to ask your motives of crossing that trail. One can ask your motives for walking in the first place, but the crossing was pure coincidence and not something you chose.

Finally we must address the standard answer to the question: "To get to the other side." It seems to imply a knowledge of the road (to understand 'the other side' the chicken must have knowledge of some object with two sides, understand that it is on one side of said object and desire to cross the object to reach the other side). The chicken must have crossed the road for the sole and ultimate purpose of reaching the other side of "the road". We are to reconcile this with the (most unassailable) assumption that the chicken has no knowledge of the road "as a road" and the need to allow this statement as a positive answer to the question "Why did the chicken cross the road?" We have specified that the chicken has no knowledge of a road "as a road". However, we have never suggested that the chicken has no knowledge of the road "as something". What then is the nature of the road as the chicken perceives it? We would not be unjustified in suggesting that at the very least the chicken has access to its own sensory data. It then must have a knowledge of the road as the "extended-hard-flatspace". We need go no further in our suppositions. We have here a chicken with an exploratory bent who wishes to discover what lies beyond the "extended-hard-flatspace". This adequately answers the question "Why did the chicken cross the road?" with the statement "To get to the other side" all without in the least requiring that the chicken understand roads in the sense that we as humans understand roads.

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I found neither of these answers very helpful, so I did some of my own research.

Chicken brains are very small, although in several places I heard that chickens have two brains, that's why they can run around with no head. Also, from what I have heard, chickens are like one of the least intelligent animals on Earth. There is no way they would be able to comprehend what a road was.

My final answer to the question is:
The chicken is simply not smart enough to cross a road, therefore, it just crossed a large flat area, likely to get to food or something similar.

Next question I will find the answer to: Which came first, the chicken or the egg?

Sunday, October 5, 2008

General Conference

Yesterday and today there was General Conference and so we gathered in mom and dad's room to watch all four sessions. I couldn't see the screen very well since it was playing on dad's laptop and I only got notes on the first session. It was good to listen to though.

I started a second blog, although that one is all about the stories I've been writing and is mostly for my readers on fanfiction to read about my stories.

There is nothing to do without schoolwork. I've been very bored whenever I haven't been doing schoolwork, but at the same time I don't particularly like schoolwork, it is just something to do.

I started reading "Artemis Fowl" and there is a code at the bottom of the pages that the reader is supposed to solve,only I can't solve it. I've tried and nothing fits. It is a complicated code and it makes no sense, There are 'E's where 'E's aren't supposed to be and also no 'E's where an 'E' should be.

I guess that's all that has happened in the last couple days, so...
~The Big Dreamer~

Friday, October 3, 2008


Today was boring, once again. I managed to get everything done early again.

Seminary this morning was a lot of fun. Since it's Friday we had a scripture mastery day. I memorized three new scriptures. They are long ones, too. If we get them all memorized by Christmas we're going to have a party with Chinese food. a fancy party. Unfortunately, I don't particularly like Chinese food.

I started a new story today. I have only three out of like fifteen stories I'm working on finished. It seems to be a problem with me, starting things and not finishing them. I get bored with them or something.

The newest story is a murder mystery. It'll be the first mystery I've written, so I don't know how good it'll be.

Mom bought a new monitor for her computer, because the other one kept messing up. It is flat and only has the right coloring if it is tilted at the right angle, kind of messed up.

I had to write two essay's today. One was a memoir. It was supposed to be 2-3 pages long but ended up being 6 pages long. The other was a two paragraph paper on how a microscope works for biology. They were both easy to write. Unfortunately, I seem to have writer's block for my stories I am writing.

I was thinking today about the sun. People seem to dislike the sun a lot, saying it causes global warming, and gives you cancer and stuff, but without it, we'd all be dead.

Plants feed off of the sun. Then animals eat those and we eat those animals. If the sun disappeared, there be no plants, and therefore they're be no food. Or light. Or warmth. The sun is way more helpful then it is bad for the Earth. Also, ever guess why people get so depressed during the winter? No sunlight.

I guess that's it for now,
~The Big Dreamer~

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

More Christmas Songs

Today I didn't have Seminary as it was a Wednesday and we don't have Seminary on Wednesdays because of the two hour late start at Riverside. I woke up early enough to go to Seminary, however. I couldn't fall asleep and so I am, once again, tired.

I was supposed to have a Biology Lab project today but the Brine Shrimp that I was supposed to be looking at under a microscope haven't matured yet.

At piano lessons I passed off two songs, making me very happy, and start two new songs, both for The Nutcracker. All of the songs I am playing are now Christmas songs. It is just barely October, still three months till Christmas. all well, my teacher is more excited about learning them than I am. She got so excited when she handed me the book. I'm the only person at my level and so therefore the only person who can play the Nutcracker songs that she teaches.

I know this is a short post, but I'm really tired and Lydia wants to me to watch a movie we got at the Library today, so I need to get off the computer.

~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The Pickle Poem

I was bored and perhaps a bit hyper today, so I wrote this odd little poem.


Everyone’s a pickle, and you are a sweet one, and I’m pretty crunchy but that is a okay.

Cause pickles are so crunchy so it’s so sweet to be one and we can both be green and have lots of warts.

Cause everyone are pickles and this is why that’s great. Cause everyone looks funny and also very straight!

If everyone were cucumbers, then I’d be a pickle! And I’ll tell you why. I different, you see.

But everyone are pickles and so that can’t happen, but that is fine with me, as long as we’re all green.

Oh, cause everyone are pickles and that’s a lot of fun, cause we can stay together in a refrigerator drawer.

And your so sweet, but some are sour. Some smell bad, but that can’t be helped. Cause pickles are pickles and everyone is green. Even though a pickle is covered in slime.

I once met a pickle, he said his name was Georgey. He said lots of things, but they all started with P.

Cause he was odd, and we are all odd too. Cause we are all pickles and that’s just what we do.

A pickle is so dangerous, it can be very big. If a pickle is dropped it’s gonna squish your toe. I witnessed it happen, a long time ago. All I have to say, is poor Mr. Poe.

There are many types of pickles, and I’ve met every one. Some are fat and juicy, and some are small and old.

But everyone’s a pickle, and that’s the honest truth. There’s one small problem, and that’s that we don’t have ears.

The pickles keep disappearing, and I don’t know where they’re going. They seem to fly away, and are never seen again.

Right before they’re gone, we hear a big crunch, I have no idea what it is, but it sounds painful.

Cause everyone’s a pickle, and I think that’s very great. Pickles are healthy, except those that are out of shape.

I think I’m gonna leave, because I am so scared. I don’t want to end up, in a stomach somewhere.

I left the refrigerator, but I didn’t get that far, I was picked up off the floor, and then I heard the crunch!


Hope you like it. :)

Monday, September 29, 2008

Home Alone

Today Lydia had a WAVA "middle school only" activity that she went to and I spent the day home alone. I finished all schoolwork and everything and practiced some hymns because I'm going to start taking organ lessons.

Now I'm sitting here bored out of my mind because Lydia usually occupies me with her hyperness.

I started exercise today, and while wandering the property I found a new path that leads up from the cabin to the house. It goes around the whole property to do it.

I had a Spanish test today. I got 100%. I'm supposed to find and introduce myself to someone who speaks Spanish for an extra assignment. The only problem is that, if someone speaks Spanish, and I know they do, then I probably know them and there is no point in introducing myself. That is a problem.

I don't know what to write my memoir on for LAC, but the thing that says what my memoir is going to be on is due today, so I have until 10:00 tonight to think of something that changed my life, that I can still remember in detail.

At Riverside it is "All Seniors dress up as old grannies and grandpas" day. So, all the seniors in Seminary came dressed up. It was fun to see them.

During Seminary, one of the girls sneezed really loud and she was sitting right next to a senior, and the senior pretended to nearly have a heart attack, because she's old.

Anyway, I was watching Harry Potter 5 a couple days ago and I was thinking that I really want to see the sixth movie. But I can't, because it's rated R. Now I'm mad at whoever rated the movie, and also the person who wrote the script to make the movie rated R. Also I'm mad at the DVD player, because it kept messing up and skipped right over the place where Sirius died. I didn't even get to see that and that's the best part. It's sad, but still the best.

Although I do like Bellatrix better than Sirius.

I guess I'll stop talking about nonsense and post this.
~The Big Dreamer~

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sunday Classes

All day today I've been so tired. I guess that I just had a busy week. Today at church, I learned about the Pride cycle, and how the Nephites and Lamanites keep doing the same thing, over and over again. They should learn to look at the past and not repeat the same mistakes. Then the Gadianton robbers came and tried to take over.

Then, in my other class, we just talked, Sis. Philipy tried to start the lesson but she kept getting distracted. Most of our classes with her are like that.

Tonight there is a fireside on pornography that mom and dad are teaching. I went to a different fireside with them, so I've already heard it. This time it'll be with people I know though.

Lydia made cookies for the fireside, and so she was delighted to find out that the cats love cookie dough.

Sis. Philipy told all the girls in her class to write a list about themselves. It has to have birth date, full name, favorite everything. I think I've done a little more then what she asked, filling two whole papers with everything I could think of about me.

Anyway, I guess that is all.
~The Big Dreamer~

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Some New Ideas

Today I woke up early and went with dad to a seminar with dad about starting a business. There was a class for teenagers about becoming an Entrepreneur, and so I got this brilliant idea that I should start a business while I'm in my teenage years,that way, I can start saving money for the many years of college I plan to go to. There's only a couple problems about that though. I have no idea what to do for a business, I don't have any money to start a business, and lastly I don't think it would work very well in the place that I live.

Another option for a job is an airplane pilot. It would be cool to be able to go up into the sky and fly.

After the seminar, me and Dad went to a football game. EWU against ISU. The Eagles won, thought the Bangles put up a good fight. The two teams were tied until fourth quarter.

The football game gave me a headache, and so now I'm dizzy. I'm really tired too.

I'm hungry at the moment since the last time I ate was six hours ago, so I think I'll post this and go get some food.

Hasta manana,
~The Big Dreamer~

Friday, September 26, 2008

Just Another Day

Today was like any other day, slow. I had my P.E. orientation though, so I'll have to start exercising again. Since I have a test in Spanish tomorrow, today I played a whole bunch of review games and learned some of Spanish culture. Today it was Mexico City. Mexico City is like New York City, Hollywood, and Washington D.C. all mixed up in one. It's about as big as that as well, being the biggest city on North America.

Anyway, I started another story, inspired by Lydia. It's about horses, just for her. The horses are magical and live in tribes and such. It's what happens when they get in a big war.

So in Seminary this morning, we did a scripture mastery contest thing. Each team was given some paper and we had to design a poster or picture that would help us memorize the scripture we were assigned. After that, each person voted, they weren't aloud to vote for their own one, and the picture with the most votes won.

My team lost. We got one vote out of fifteen, and that was only because someone had pity on us. I thought we did a good job on the poster too. The one that won didn't make any sense at all either.

They shared their winnings with my team though, because my whole team voted for the winning poster, that's why they won.

I have to write a memoir for LAC (Literary Analysis and Composition) and I have no idea what to write it on. I don't have a memory that is life changing for me. It is due next Friday so I guess I have a week to think.

I found a new quote that I like. It is "Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly." by Langston Hughes.

That is all that happened today. Adios,
~The Big Dreamer~

Thursday, September 25, 2008

The Future

I was thinking today about what people from the future would think about my house. Like, say the house is deserted for some reason, then it is discovered 3000 years into the future. What would they think of it?

They’d see my laptop and say, “Whoa! It’s and antique!” and then put it in a museum. Or like a bag of cereal on the counter. “They actually ate this stuff?” Or the old piano, “I can’t imagine trying to play an old thing like this!”

What would be their reaction to clothes we wear or some of the technology they found? It’s like us today discovering things in ancient times. Trying to guess what things are for, and how they are made.

It’s odd to think about, really.

Seminary was fun today, several people fell asleep. I didn’t win the daily prize today. I usually do, so they have started to call me “Lucky” even though I didn’t win today.

I had a good idea for a story about a little girl that finds a magical world, that only she can see. I know, it’s not very original, but it will have some original points in it. I’ll probably post it on fictionpress when it is finished.

Today in Spanish I spent quite awhile playing the games and earning money to add to my avatar. I've decided that I need to learn Spanish better so I'm going to use it more in everyday life, saying things in Spanish rather then English. The farther along I get the less people will understand me though. Only dad, because he speaks Spanish too.

My homeroom teacher has a really long hard name so she told everyone to call her Mrs. C. Now I have a Mr. D and a Mrs. C as teachers.

Mrs. C, lives in Seattle, but her husband is a pilot so she can fly over here when our class has face to face meetings.

A girl in home is named Aubrey. She is a freshman like me and so I want to meet her. I don't know what classes she is taking, though.

I guess that is it. Adios,
~The Big Dreamer~

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

A Bunch of Random Thoughts

Today my parents went to some sort of business meeting, so since I had piano lessons, I had to do my school work at my dad's office. I couldn't do my Spanish because the computer didn't work and I have a assignment that has to be turned in that I can only do at home.

It's tiring, but school is fun. I had a test today in Biology and passes, but only barely.

If America is a free country, what are all the other country's like? I've always wondered how they are so different because they seem to be just as free as America.

Seminary was canceled today. I've been tired all day from it. Lydia's mad as well because she didn't get the usual Dum-Dum that Sis. Smiley hands out.

Last Christmas I found the song "Carol of the Bells" and decided to try to learn it. by the time I got to it, however, Christmas was over. So, I'm bringing the music to piano lessons today and hopefully Christy will help me learn it. Maybe I'll even play it at the Recital.

Why aren't cars ever yellow? I've seen cars of all other colors, except yellow. Some were close to yellow, but they still have a greenish tint. I've strangest color car I've seen was bright neon green. That's the closest I've seen to yellow.

There's this fruity smell that won't seem to leave me alone. I smell it everywhere but I don't wear perfume or anything that is fruity. It must be me that smells that way, since it's always around, but I don't know what it is.

I learned that cellphones give you cancer today. That's pretty much everything, now. We should all just sit at home and be hermits, just so we won't get sick from cancer, although there are plenty of people who use cellphones and microwaves and hairdryers that don't get cancer.

I think I want to be an author when I grow up. My mom gave me this idea of when I want to story to be in a male point of view to put my first name as an initial and use my middle name. My middle name is a guys name, so it would sound as if a man were writing it.

Also, she said to use my maiden name as my author's name and use my married name everywhere else, that way my family is protected but people who know me still know who wrote the book.

Plus, my name is a perfect name to be on a book, or even in a book. It just has a cool ring to it.

Anyway, that's enough blabbering. So long,
~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

A Family Photo

Today was boring. It started with a normal Seminary class, then we went home and did school work. The internet went out so I didn't get my school work done until around two O' clock today. It gave me more hours though.

I started Spanish. It's really fun. It's all online and you get to play games, which earns you virtual money, which you can buy stuff for your avatar with. I've made my avatar look like Haley Potter. I've already started learning the actual language as well. I know a whole bunch of basic phrases.

Mutual was canceled. We drove to the church to find that everyone was outside. Apparently, the kitchen was being remodeled and the whole place stank. They will probably cancel Seminary tomorrow too.

I found out when my Christmas piano recital is now. December 15th. I have around three months to prepare. My favorite style of music to play is like a jazzy blues type. Christy (the teacher) is going to try to find a Christmas song in that style for me to play. I wonder if I need to have it memorized or not?

I read about joining the military in Finding Your Path today. It sounds like it might be fun, but I don't think it would be a good choice for me.

My mom hung up the family pictures today. The one of me is actually cute. Michael and Jaspenelle's picture is the best. In Justin and Heather's picture, Heather isn't smiling. It is hard to get a picture of her in which she is smiling. In Ginanne and Jordan's picture, Emily is crying.

The coolest picture, though, is the one below.

This gets our whole family with my niece in the middle. I call it the ring of family. It reminds me of a quote I heard once. "Put the name of the person you love in a circle, not a heart, because a heart can be broken but a circle goes round and round forever." This is cool because the photo represents the way our family will love each other forever.

Monday, September 22, 2008

A Normal Day

So, the family potluck yesterday went well. It was nothing like I worried about, of course. We had dinner, I had to sit at the kiddy table with my little sister and baby niece, and then played Apples to Apples till late. We were supposed to watch a home video about when I was a toddler but they couldn’t get the VCR to work.
My nephew, Damian, is so cute! Emily is cuter, but she has curly hair. Nothing can beat curls.
Seminary the is morning was interesting, Sis. Smiley turned out all the lights then turned on a flashlight and held it over Bo's scriptures. She then had him read the scripture in Matthew about letting your light shine. It was cool how she did it.
I finished all my school work early again. That's probably a good thing though because a storm is headed our way right now. Lydia brought all the cats inside so they wouldn't get soaked. They are outdoor cats though, they're used to the rain.
I'm starting Christmas music in both church choir and Piano lessons. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas music, but playing it in September? That's a little much. Christmas is still three months away.
I've decided I hate horses. Lydia loves them so much but they are big and stinky. I don't like to go near them, they make me nervous. Lydia has decorated her room so it is full of horses. Horse pictures, stuffed animals, toys, everything horsey. I'm sharing that room with her until my room is cleaned, (the carpets have a big stain on them that is disgusting and smells bad) and it gets annoying.
I learned all about colleges today. I looked at a college application form and it looks long and boring. And the cost is a lot as well. Plus, to become a marine biologist I need to go to at least ten years of college. I definitely need to get a scholarship and/or a grant.
My cats are so annoying. I love them but they are always in the way and making messes. Plus they're distracting. Simba and Lily are always spazistic, Sandy always want to cuddle, and Co-co has to be in your lap, at all time, or she meows. Loudly. Bellatrix is probably the only good one. She gets hyper but can also sit in your lap and cuddle. She is small enough that while sitting in your lap, you can do other things.
I guess that's all for today. Until next time,
~The Big Dreamer~

Saturday, September 20, 2008

A Busy Day

Today was hectic. First we went to the temple, I'm LDS, by the way, then right after we got home we went to a luau, which was fun. There was a pig there that we got to watch the little kids chase.

I have a horrible headache today, I got it when, changing my earrings, I found a lump behind my ear. As soon as I touched the lump I got a headache, and the lump has been hurting too. I have no idea what it is or where I would have gotten it.

My dad listens to this really obnoxious music in his car that is loud and pounding. I've been riding in his car a lot today, so that may have contributed to the headache.

I was thinking today about life, as I often do, and I decided that I wanted to experience a lot of things. I want to go skydiving, even though I'm afraid of heights. I want to travel to all seven continents. I want to be a famous author, that people will write fanfictions after my books. I want to learn many languages, so while traveling the world, I can speak to the natives. I want to have my name in history books.

I want people in the future to say, "This person was a great example. I want to be just like her!" I want to find true love. I want become a great pianist, I'm already on my way, five years of lessons! I want to have children. I want to learn.

That's why I'm the big dreamer.

I tend to worry a lot, but all of the worrying is unrealistic. I imagine bad things happening that almost couldn't happen. I do this all in my head. I imagine 'what would happen if...' to my own life. I think all the time about lots of stuff. Most of it not worth thinking about.

My whole family, just my siblings and parents, are getting together for a potluck. I was thinking about it and imagined this scene:

Ginanne, me, and Lydia are arguing over something. Michael suddenly jumps in at something that Ginanne brought up. Mom and dad are yelling at all of us because we are ruining the get together. Jaspenelle and Jordan (my siblings spouses) are standing there, both holding a baby, staring in shock.

Lydia gets fed up and runs out of the house in a fit. We never see her again. I am crying and Michael finally grabs his wife and son and leaves, saying that he doesn't want to see us again. Ginanne and Jordan kick my parents and I out of the house. Our family falls apart.

I know, with absolute certainty that the scene above couldn't possible happen. So why do I think of it and worry? No idea. That's my life. I'm crazy, I know.

I guess that's about all for today then,
~The Big Dreamer~

Thursday, September 18, 2008

A Very Weird Family

My members of my family are very weird. That's what I was thinking about today.

Dad decided to play a sort of a prank on us this morning. We went out to go to Seminary and we couldn't find the car. We looked around a bit and finally spotted it. It was in the dog's reach, where neither me or mom will go. Dad had to come and back it out so we could go.I still made it to Seminary on time, though.

Mom was picking her nose this morning, I know strange. Usually you do that in private, not driving on the way to Seminary.

Lydia, well, she's strange in every aspect of her life. She's half cat,I swear. Always running around on hands and knees.

I am the last weird person in our family. Today in Seminary, a stinkbug landed on me. I calmly looked down and just flicked it off, not even thinking about it. If I were at home and a stinkbug landed on me I would have started screaming. I guess I can hide my expressions very well in public.

I started Biology today. It sounds like it'll be a fun class from what I did today.

Stewart must be a common last name. Today in English, we were having a discussion and I noticed that there were three Stewart's there. Me, a Johanna, and a Ashleigh. We all have the last name of Stewart.

Lydia and mom got in a fight again. I always thought it was weird that Lydia always acts so much more teenagerish than me. And yes, I know teenagerish is not a word.

I have good news! My laptop is up and running again! It is so much easier to type now that I have it back. I have all my fanfiction stories and such back too. I can start working on them again. All my readers will be happy.

I guess that is all for now. Till next time,
~The Big Dreamer~

A Very Smelly Day

All day today, mom was making and canning relish. The house really stinks of relish now. I hate relish and this is worse than then the store bought stuff.

I got done with school work way early today. I was done at 11:00. I still need to put more hours in, but I really don't care about the hours.I just want to get the work done.

In Finding Your Path today I took a test to see what career I'd be good at. The top choice was a Historian, followed by a photojournalist. They are both boring jobs to me. I want to be a marine biologist, not a historian. I hate reading history, and if I become a historian I'll be the one writing the books, no doubt.

Also, when we looked at our career, we had to choose a college that we could learn the job from. The nearest college to choose was in Arizona. I don't want to go to Arizona. I'd like to go to B.Y.U. Hawaii, actually.

Going through all this college stuff and learning how much it takes to get in and trying to find a successful career is changing my mind about wanting to go to college. I wanted to go to college before to become a marine biologist, but what is the use of going to all that work if I'm not going to be successful in that field of work?

I seem to be very lucky. In Seminary, I have won the daily drawing almost every single time. Only twice, I haven't. I wonder why I keep winning.

Also, my friendship with Shannon is growing. We were laughing and talking, like real friends do. I love Seminary because I got a new friend out of it. Hopefully she will be a good friend.

This year the church isn't putting on a Halloween party so me and Lydia have decided to put one on ourselves. I don't even know how to start planning it though. I also need to make my costume, if mom will help. We're both really busy and I don't think it'll get done.

One of my goals I have lately decided to have is to be able to play some hymns on the piano, and then learn to play them on the organ. The only problem is that I don't want to practice them in front of people. Whenever I practice the piano, mom and Lydia are always around. If they weren't there I'd practice. Even if only Lydia were there and mom were gone I think I would practice them.

I guess I'm done writing now,
~The Big Dreamer~

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

My Mission Statement

Today in Finding Your Path we had to write our 'Mission Statement' basically what we wanted in our life. It asked several questions the I had to write the statement. I liked it a lot so I'll post it here as well.

My Mission Statement for my life is full of big dreams. I want to go to college, I want to travel around the world and discover new things. I want to write fantasy novels for children and adults alike. I'd like to study marine animals and on top of it all I'd like to have children. Some of the things I value are: family, hard work, spirituality, fairness and equality, and happiness. Some of the things that make me happy are being with friends, playing the piano, and writing.

Today while doing Geometry I was thinking about when Ginanne was learning Geometry. I can remember her asking mom about things like 'plain,' 'line,' and 'point' and thinking the projects she had to do were strange. Now that I'm doing them they actually make sense.

Anyway, piano lessons are later today and I'm probably as prepared as I'll ever be. I've been playing these songs all summer and I'm pretty good at them. Hopefully the teacher passes them off.

This morning I didn't have Seminary because the regular high school students had a two hour late start. I was tired while doing schoolwork. That was bad since I was doing the Scantron test. I nearly fell asleep half way through it. The test it self was only supposed to take an hour, but since it customizes itself to the person taking the test, it took me nearly an hour and a half, until mom said I could take a break. I got on later and finished it, taking another half hour. The test took two hours longer than it was scheduled to.

It was a tiring test as well. It included lots of things that I didn't understand. Maybe that was why it took so long to finish, because it had to find my exact level.

I got into a discussion today during English about what would happen if you ate some certain type of candy then drank soda. They kept saying that it would make your stomach explode. Several people said they would try it and then post the results. It'll be entertaining to see what they are. I doubt their stomach would explode but it might be fun to try, to see what happens myself.

So long for now,
~The Big Dreamer~

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Lots of Differences.

Today was my second day of high school. I had three orientations for classes today. English, Geometry, and Finding Your Path. They were extremely long and boring, although my English teacher is fun. He can do this voice that he calls the 'Illuminator.' It's funny.

Anyway, tomorrow I have another piano lesson with the new teacher. I'm still getting used to her. She is totally different from my old teacher. Her teaching techniques seem to be more laid back. She has me do less in the lesson than the other teacher did. Also her piano is electric so it is frustrating to play on. I'll get used to it eventually.

Tonight at mutual we played glow-in-the-dark volleyball. It was another different thing. I'm not very good at volleyball in the first place and this just makes it harder. the ball was near invisible because the spray on it wasn't very bright. All the glow sticks around our wrists and necks were cool to see though. It was fun to spin around and see the light all around you.

Another thing that I recently started is early morning seminary. It is tiring but it wakes me up so I ready to start on school work as soon as I get back. As a plus, Sis. Smiley always gives us plenty of candy during class so we're all hyped up by the time it's over.

Some cool things I thought about today: Ideas for Halloween costumes. This year me and Lydia are going as an Indian and a Cowgirl. Some ideas I liked were a half angel/half devil costume, a nursery rhyme theme where one of us dresses up like the moon and another a cow, and a glow stick person, where you cover yourself with glow-sticks and glow in the dark.

That brought up the idea of a glow in the dark wedding, where everything is covered in glow sticks. It is a fun idea, but very unrealistic.

Anyway, that's all for now,
~The Big Dreamer~